I don’t know what it is about getting older, but I’m certainly less sure of things than I once was.
I never used to think about what-ifs, but these days I find my mind wandering more and more into the unknown. What if you had it to do all over again? Would you make the same choices? Would you follow the same path? Would you play it safe or would you bet it all on the long shot? Admittedly, I’m no longer sure of those answers. Some are a given – I wouldn’t change them for anything, as for the others, I’m not sure I’d change them either – they are the essence of who I am today, but I can’t help but wonder who I might of been.
As a kid, like most of us, I was full of idealistic hopes for the future and somewhere along the way those ideals fell victim to practicality and survival. As I dive deeper into photography and exploration, I hearken back to those days as a child and remember – the freedom to explore – to take chances – to dream big – and to ignore the possibility of failure.
Mid-life crisis? I’d hardly call questioning a crisis, but perhaps by some definitions. For me, I’m content with letting my mind wonder a bit and to dip my toe into the deeper end of the pool regardless if I can swim or not. Perhaps the opportunity of personal growth is worth the risk? Time will tell…